icicles at Buttermilk Falls 

Awesome view of the falls 

Current Mood: content
Current Music: "White Flag" -Dido

Justin has a good take on life in his journal... check it out
Philosophy.

So yeah, makes you stop and think/smell the roses. Makes me want to live life to its fullest, no holds barred. Now if I could only figure out how to do that. Lol.. sounds easy, but it never is.

I like this song much much right now.

Dido
"White Flag"
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Lol.. seems that all my favorite songs lately are sad and depressing, although I definitely do not feel all that sad and depressing. Maybe the lyrics just speak to me somehow on some level. Lol.... some reason last weekend pops into my head when I hear this song. However, I try not to look to deeply into it, look what happened last time I did...

Just enjoy things for what they are. Do not try and overanalyze things, you just end up with a headache and a confused self.

Feel you pull me down....

Current Mood:happy
Current Music: Skylight- Blade Trinity Soundtrack

I feel like its been a while since I last wrote in here... or maybe just a lot of stuff has been happening. Who knows.

I am still pretty pumped about my scholarship. Its super amazing! I realize that I have nor have my parents for that matter, paid tuition for any of my higher education. How super great is that? Where is all the money I we saved though?? Lol, I probably spent it all on underwear.

I came home for the weekend, and its been weird/great. I went down to Fredonia on friday night. The willy c sells sushi now, and the California rolls are superb! I am glad I went down there, I was apprehensive at first, at rightfully so, but I think it was very good. I was uncomfortable like for about 5 minutes.. of course that resonated to about 30 minutes, because I kept thinking about it. Still, I think I am past all that now and can happily move on knowing that Kyle and I will always be awesome friends. Yay!

And Mary came home this weekend! What are the odds? It was beyond great to see her too. AND we are going for Thai tomorrow! Spooge!Today me, Pat, Mary, Mike, and Jim made sushi (guess im on some sushi kick) and it was just so great to sit and talk with good friends. I was really apprehensive about coming home this weekend, but I am so glad I did.

Of course I was happy to see my family. It was weird to see my room. I think I want to bring my guitar back with me, I really enjoyed playing it. I really missed Mindy, I wish i could pack her in the car with me. And granny and beaners!!

I am just so happy I saw so many people. It makes me feel really good. Yay for everyone!

Yeah baby I'm seductive!

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic! You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale. You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Ha ha... as you can see.. there are no flowers here... but it's still pretty cool. I would have gotten closer.. but I was running late, and it was raining... 

This is from Amy & Aaron's honeymoon... such pretty flowers!! This is a hibiscus 

w00t!

Current Mood: Happy
Current Music: Online Terrorism Class - "DJ" Prof. Kolin

Hip Hip Hooray! I think I did really good on my interview! This is very relieving and stressful, because now if I do not get it, I will be upset. Washington DC was very rainy. The city campus is pretty big.. but do not worry.. there seemed to be a Starbucks on every corner! AND there is a Thai food place too! Bonus!

Despite the rain, I walked around and saw the White House, Washington Monument, Lincoln Memorial, and the Mall. I even rode the Metro all by myself! *Beaming with pride*

I super much hope I got this scholarship, because it would rock. AND there are a plethora of hot guys! (Like the International Relations guy who helped me find the metro station!) Super Mega Happy w00t!

nervous!

Current Mood: Clocks - Coldplay
Current Music: Nervous, but excited

So yes tomorrow is the big day....

I have been chosen as one of the finalists for a DoD scholarship at GWU... they are flyin me down to DC tomorrow for a 20 minutes interview.

Wow, I really want this scholarship. It would be super dee super helpful.... lol.. yes I must say a $55,000 scholarship is very helpful for grad school. I just hope I prepared enough. I have no idea what they will ask me... and believe me that is bothersome.

I am so grateful to have gotten this far.. but who am I kidding.. I won't be happy until I get the scholarship. I got the grades, lets just hope I can convince the panel Im the one for it.

I wish I had someone to hug. I would love a hug right now.....

SEQUENTIAL Pictures \\\ Star Wars Episode III: A Lost Hope [Revenge of the Sith parody trailer]

SEQUENTIAL Pictures \\\ Star Wars Episode III: A Lost Hope [Revenge of the Sith parody trailer] So funny!

Big Exploit in Browsers... beware of Spammers!

awww! Puffers! 

Current Mood: feel'in' good
Current Music: The Prophet Stomp - Reverend Horton Heat

Wahoo!! I went skiing yesterday for the second time. The first time I was absolutely horrible, as Madeline or Jen will tell you. This time however, was a much different story!! I rocked pretty hard, and I guess I ski parallel instead of wedge! (thats I a good thing I guess) Of course I fell a couple of times, like 4, but wheee it was fun going fast! It last its fun when I realized I was out of control, but that was like only for a split second. I almost ran into some kid.. .but I did apologize!!

Now I can go skiing with the guys from work!

Wheee for a super bowl today.

Current Mood: slightly tipsy
Current Music: Grace Be God Go I - Floggin Molly

I love how I think my life sucks. It really doesnt. I am healthy and I have good friends. I do stuff, I dont absolutely hate my job, and I like my coworkers. I wish I did more though. I want to make sure I don't miss life.

Sure I have rough spots. There's Dave. I have no idea how I feel about it. There are times I think he just made up everything he said to me, and then there are times I feel he was being completely honest and truly cared. I need to stop worrying about things that happened and think optimistically about things that might happen.

Why do I make such a big deal about relationships anyways? I have been realizing a lot of things lately. I have talked to many people about things I never thought were even possible with them. If that makes sense..... I missed out on so much... or did I? I didn't think so at the time, as I was perfectly happy with my situation. But then things change and all these things I failed to see come into focus (too little too late in some situations). Did I make the right choice? I can't think about it, you can't dwell in the past.

I miss Dave.... there I said it. I miss being loved and wanted. Maybe I miss Dave because he was the last guy I 'dated', I don't know. I need to stop clinging to dead things... just because I know what it is. He doesn't care? Fine. Be that way. You are the one missing out.

Then why am I the one who feels alone? I thought I was over Dave, but I can't stop thinking about him.... gah!! Nothing sucks more than that. I need to meet other people, find out that there ARE people who care, who give a damn. What a pain. Love stinks... even married people gripe about their spouse.... its a never ending cycle....

WHATS THE POINT

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Kazaa's a nuisance--so says Kazaa maker's staff | CNET News.com I knew Kazaa was horrendously bad for your computer

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badday.mpg (video/mpeg Object) I wish I could do this sometimes....

Frantic tic tic tic tic tic tock

Current Mood: Frantic
Current Music: too panicky to listen to music

RED ALERT! *insert Enterprise red alert sound here*

Wow... most worrisome 15 minutes EVER. I just got a phone call from GWU saying they did not receive all of my DoD scholarship materials. GUH?? So I call up mom and ask her where she sent them, turns out it was sent to the wrong address (right street, wrong office). I do not know if I told her the wrong address or what happened, but I can't blame her because without her I'd be up the creek without a paddle....

So I'll take the blame... I guess

So I call the nice lady at GWU back (she didnt even have to call at all now did she?) and she said she will look for it. However, if she cannot find it I need to send in ASAP:

• 2 letters of recommendation
  
• 2 read-only CD-ROMS
  
• Transcripts

originally said she needed the information by tomorrow *shoot me now*, but then it changed to ASAP*still better keep the gun handy*. There is no way I could get that all thrown together today to ensure delivery by tomorrow. I doubt I could even get it mailed tomorrow. Wow. I really hope she finds the envelope. I dont think they just throw out envelopes do you? Better not! I wasted a lot of time on that stupid application!

*sigh*

I need a drink... maybe two....

The Code Project - Free Source Code and Tutorials

The Code Project - Free Source Code and Tutorials This looks like an awesome programming site!

The New York Times > Dining & Wine > The Waiter You Stiffed Has Not Forgotten

The New York Times > Dining & Wine > The Waiter You Stiffed Has Not Forgotten I remember being a waitress....

The New York Times > Sports > Hockey > N.H.L. Players Reject Latest Proposal to End Lockout

The New York Times > Sports > Hockey > N.H.L. Players Reject Latest Proposal to End Lockout I miss hockey so much :(

CNN.com - Study:�Spam costing�companies�$22 billion a year - Feb 3, 2005

CNN.com - Study:�Spam costing�companies�$22 billion a year - Feb 3, 2005 SPAM is bad...mkay?

Color Fields Color Picker

This is a pretty awesome doohickey You choose a color and pictures pop up that correlate with that color... you just have to check it out!

This is Cornell, ain't it purty?? 

Well let's try this!

In all honesty, the only reason I am switching is so now I can easily upload my picture to my blog using Hello from Picasa. Which I MUST SAY, is a super awesome program! You can get it here

Who knows if this will last... we shall see...