Monday, June 27, 2005
Current Music: Low Man's Lyric - Metallica
WOW! Best weekend ever! Well.. I am sure if I could of had a wireless connection and was playing Final Fantasy as well as all I did this weekend it would have been 30,000X better, but shizzle, this weekend was great! A bunch of us (12) went up to the 1000 Islands to go campinng and it was such a great time! We went on s tour boat of the 1000 islands, bummed around Heart Island, drank lotsa beer, looked at the stars, went kayaking, and basically had a great time ("do you know what a chain looks like?", "We were just blowing! We didn't mean to do that!"). There was one point where I was really sad, but that's because I am a moron. Certain things happened I wish didn't, but I got over them quickly after sitting and looking at the stars an realizing how lucky I am.
I wish evety weekend was as good as this one was. Sadly thats not possible.
This comic is funny.
If you are a geek in any way shape or form you will find it quite humorous.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Current Music: Incomplete
I keep hearing your voice, I turn and you are not there.
I see your face in a crowd, I run to you but you vanish into nothingness.
You ghost follows me everywhere, dragging on my heart.
I know I should be moving on, and that I'm better off without you...
but I keep going back to what I thought was you and me,
I'll never be able to exorcise the memory of you.
...I hate you for that, because it shows that I am the weak one.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Current Music: The Smell of Desire - Engima
Lotsa stuff happening right now. Mads just left after we tried to figure out how to feed 12 people for the camping trip. Crazy is the word I am looking for. 8 of them are guys, 2 of which are Marines... so who knows how much they can eat. It should prove to be an excellent time however, so I am happy about that.
I got a place in DC! Well not yet exactly, I gotta fill out this form and pay them money, but then after that I get two rooms! I'm a little worried about money, but I just need to budget (something I am not too good at). The girl seems really cool, and she says the other girls are like her. So, I should be meeting many new and interesting people. I really like the apartment in Old Town though, it was a tough call. Kevin (the roomie) reminded me so much of Erik (his humor) it was nuts! You can see the house I am living in here. Mine is the third room and the attached second room. Everyone should come and visit me too!
I will write more later.. I am so tired!
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Current Music: nothing
I went to Erik's wedding today. I could of sworn I saw you standing there, but it was someone else, yet I continued to see you through the night, and alcohol would not make you go away. Grrrrr... just go away already. It's like I either hate you or I want you so bad, its stupid. I won't let you make me another trophy of yours.
Weddings make you want to get married, they also make you feel bad because you are not with someone. This I find to be very annoying. Sorry, I guess Im a butthead for not being with anyone. It's not that I don't want to be with anyone, I just can't seem to find him. Or Im ugly... not sure which, but I am hoping for the first one.
Monday, June 06, 2005
Current Music: Because of You - Nickelback
I feel like I am losing control of my life. I am not entirely sure why suddenly this popped up at me. I feel a sort of helplessness about certain aspects going on in my life. I know that this is just a natural part of the process of moving on (in many senses of the word), but I DO NOT like it at all. My apartment situation is crazy, I have not heard back from professors about stipend info, my love life seems pointless (why start anything thats bound to end after July?) but I know I want something. I think society places way too much empahsis on relationships. "You never are whole until you find your soulmate..." what type of hooha is that? Of course, when I was in love I didn't think it was hooha.. but oh how that changes... I sound like a bitter old maid, how awesome.
Current Music: Some Kind of Monster - Metallica
Man, how hectic things seem to have been. When I do find 'down time' I get bored. I went with Maddekins to Itahca yesterday to look at apartments. Of course it was the hottest/humidest day of the year, and her A/C decides to die. SO AWESOME. But we did get Taste of Thai, so I was pleased beyond belief. She thinks she knows where she will be living too, so the trip was a double bonus.
I have been looking online all morning for apartments, man it gets tiring typing in the same ol stuff. 21/F grad student, laid back ,etc. I wish I lived closer just so I could meet these people. I don't want them OR me stuck in an awkward/unpleasant situation.
Summer classes start tomorrow... w00t to the highest power. I have also been perusing the Security+ cd my mom got for me, hoorah for filtering out packets.
I need to go to the gym, let out some aggression, I saw someone today I did not feel like seeing, and I need to vent frustration on the treadmill.