"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Current Mood: happy/victorious
Current Music: the Less Than Jake album
w00t to a great night out with Nick! We had some pretty good Thai.. although I am still not sure he liked it (he poked at it a lot!), but he put on a brave face. Then we went to Butterwood's for dessert (spooge!), and after he lost the game of rock, paper, scissors, he came over to the house and we watched The Three Amigos! SO awesome! Hanging out with Nick was super awesome, he better come down to DC and visit like he promised!
Also, I am so glad I stuck something out, because in the end I feel SO much better about it. Ha ha, I win!!
Current Music: the Less Than Jake album
w00t to a great night out with Nick! We had some pretty good Thai.. although I am still not sure he liked it (he poked at it a lot!), but he put on a brave face. Then we went to Butterwood's for dessert (spooge!), and after he lost the game of rock, paper, scissors, he came over to the house and we watched The Three Amigos! SO awesome! Hanging out with Nick was super awesome, he better come down to DC and visit like he promised!
Also, I am so glad I stuck something out, because in the end I feel SO much better about it. Ha ha, I win!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Current Mood: indifferent... once again!
Current Music: The Science of Selling Yourself Short- Less Than Jake
I saw War of the Worlds tonight, and I am not going to lie to you... I flat out cried during one part of the movie. It was when I saw our boys going into a battle they knew they couldn't win, but they did it because they knew they had to try and defend their homeland. Tears were rolling down my face... that's my definition of an American in my eyes. I wonder if I could do that, I hope I can. I have so much respect for all the military, I have thought once or twice about seriously joining the Marines, but something always stopped me. Not sure what it is. I just want to make a difference.
People condemn the military, but they shouldn't. If they have a problem with the war, they need to bring it up with George W and Congress. Those in the military did not decide to go to war, they went to war because (A)someone told them to AND/OR (B) they believe in this country, something that this country stands for.
I do not know if I could lay down my life for anything or anyone, I give them so much respect for putting their lives on the line every day.UURRRAAGGGH!!
Current Music: The Science of Selling Yourself Short- Less Than Jake
I saw War of the Worlds tonight, and I am not going to lie to you... I flat out cried during one part of the movie. It was when I saw our boys going into a battle they knew they couldn't win, but they did it because they knew they had to try and defend their homeland. Tears were rolling down my face... that's my definition of an American in my eyes. I wonder if I could do that, I hope I can. I have so much respect for all the military, I have thought once or twice about seriously joining the Marines, but something always stopped me. Not sure what it is. I just want to make a difference.
People condemn the military, but they shouldn't. If they have a problem with the war, they need to bring it up with George W and Congress. Those in the military did not decide to go to war, they went to war because (A)someone told them to AND/OR (B) they believe in this country, something that this country stands for.
I do not know if I could lay down my life for anything or anyone, I give them so much respect for putting their lives on the line every day.UURRRAAGGGH!!
Monday, July 25, 2005
How long do we wait when the dream are all gone...
Current Mood: indifferent
Current Music: Mistake - Serial Joe <~ Thanks Mary for this CD!
So wonderfulness, I am leaving soon. I am SO nervous about everything. Will my roommates like me? Will people in general like me? Will I be home alone every Friday night? I am hoping that these are all lacking basis. People tell me I am easy to get along with.
Awww... the guys at work are so awesome. I TXT'd Geoff and told him he needs to be at work because I needed my back cracked, and lo and behold he shows up! I refused to let him touch me though, because he smelled super awesome.. I didn't want my reekiness ruining that. Donny wants to come down to visit me so we can go see the Rocky Horror Picture show because he thinks I would be "the bestest person to go with". I replied with some comment on how bestest is not a word... lol. It would be awesome so have Donny come down and visit! Yay!
Ah! So today I got a free airline ticket to anywhere in the continental United States from my aunt. She got one because she got bumped off her flight, but she can't use it within the year. So she gave it to me! w00t to the highest power! Hopefully I will get to use it soon, like October maybe? Lol, I need to find out if I am still invited! BEST birthday present... warm weather! ;)
I am going to miss the Now... I bitch and complain about it, but I LOVE the people I work with there. I am going to be so emotional my last day, its going to be quite ridiculous. Aww... I miss Geoff and Donny already! Of COURSE I am going to miss Joel, the super awesomest boss in the world. I was telling Mads about all the fun stuff Joel and I discuss and she was amazed. Her boss has said like 2 sentences to her since she has started workin in January. You rock Joel.
A perfect example of how awesome everyone at the Now is and how much respect I have for everyone there is I answer to them when they call me Mel. I do not answer when anyone else calls me that, and I acutally get upset when people outside the Now call me that. Somehow I feel that it's the Now's term for me and no one elses... so weird and cute.
Current Music: Mistake - Serial Joe <~ Thanks Mary for this CD!
So wonderfulness, I am leaving soon. I am SO nervous about everything. Will my roommates like me? Will people in general like me? Will I be home alone every Friday night? I am hoping that these are all lacking basis. People tell me I am easy to get along with.
Awww... the guys at work are so awesome. I TXT'd Geoff and told him he needs to be at work because I needed my back cracked, and lo and behold he shows up! I refused to let him touch me though, because he smelled super awesome.. I didn't want my reekiness ruining that. Donny wants to come down to visit me so we can go see the Rocky Horror Picture show because he thinks I would be "the bestest person to go with". I replied with some comment on how bestest is not a word... lol. It would be awesome so have Donny come down and visit! Yay!
Ah! So today I got a free airline ticket to anywhere in the continental United States from my aunt. She got one because she got bumped off her flight, but she can't use it within the year. So she gave it to me! w00t to the highest power! Hopefully I will get to use it soon, like October maybe? Lol, I need to find out if I am still invited! BEST birthday present... warm weather! ;)
I am going to miss the Now... I bitch and complain about it, but I LOVE the people I work with there. I am going to be so emotional my last day, its going to be quite ridiculous. Aww... I miss Geoff and Donny already! Of COURSE I am going to miss Joel, the super awesomest boss in the world. I was telling Mads about all the fun stuff Joel and I discuss and she was amazed. Her boss has said like 2 sentences to her since she has started workin in January. You rock Joel.
A perfect example of how awesome everyone at the Now is and how much respect I have for everyone there is I answer to them when they call me Mel. I do not answer when anyone else calls me that, and I acutally get upset when people outside the Now call me that. Somehow I feel that it's the Now's term for me and no one elses... so weird and cute.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Friday, July 22, 2005
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
Monday, July 18, 2005
Lafave Rejects Plea Deal, Date Set For Trial - from TBO.com
Lafave Rejects Plea Deal, Date Set For Trial - from TBO.com
Should have thought of that BEFORE you had sex with your student... weirdo!
Should have thought of that BEFORE you had sex with your student... weirdo!
Saturday, July 16, 2005
I never know how to feel
Current Mood: longing
Current Music: "Swept Away" Avett Brothers
Ever do those things that you think that you will make you feel better, but in the end you somehow feel worse? How do you get out of a rut like that? I guess try and forget about it. I keep thinking about 2 for 1 martinis at Cecelia's on monday... and how soon I will be leaving NY for a good 4 years to live hopefully in a kick ass city. Yes, maybe then...
Current Music: "Swept Away" Avett Brothers
Ever do those things that you think that you will make you feel better, but in the end you somehow feel worse? How do you get out of a rut like that? I guess try and forget about it. I keep thinking about 2 for 1 martinis at Cecelia's on monday... and how soon I will be leaving NY for a good 4 years to live hopefully in a kick ass city. Yes, maybe then...
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Current Mood: who knows, certainly not me
Current Music: Die Die My Darling - Metallica
Well what a time in DC it was! I met Danielle (another roomie). I instantly liked her because she put pink flamingos up on the lawn *I use the word lawn very loosely here, more like place for weeds to grow*. I met some more people after Michelle took me to a BBQ one of her friends was having. SOOOO great! We did beer shots, which was pretty fun. It's nice to know I get along relatively well with everyone there. I guess having a house on the hill is sorta hoi polloi, although I definitely do not feel like that. It should be a great time though! (A street girls rock!)
I even got to see Kaitlin yesterday! So wonderful! It was so fun hanging out with her, and it really wouldnt be that hard to come down and see her (vica versa as well). I will def go there if I have a hankering for crab and beating something up (ie the crab, not Kaitlin). We saw this AWESOME band, The Avett Brothers . They are a wonderful mix of bluegrass and awesomeness. I even got a free ticket!! People in Baltimore are so friendly, its crazy.
These flip flops my mom got are a GREAT conversation starter. At the BBQ I saw a girl who had them on, turns out she's from Alaska, and we had a wonderful conversation about moose. While at the airport a guy sitting next to me had the exact same ones on I did. I mentioned it to him, turns out he's moving to DC in August! He got my phone number and he said he would call! Ha ha, what a way to meet someone!
Current Music: Die Die My Darling - Metallica
Well what a time in DC it was! I met Danielle (another roomie). I instantly liked her because she put pink flamingos up on the lawn *I use the word lawn very loosely here, more like place for weeds to grow*. I met some more people after Michelle took me to a BBQ one of her friends was having. SOOOO great! We did beer shots, which was pretty fun. It's nice to know I get along relatively well with everyone there. I guess having a house on the hill is sorta hoi polloi, although I definitely do not feel like that. It should be a great time though! (A street girls rock!)
I even got to see Kaitlin yesterday! So wonderful! It was so fun hanging out with her, and it really wouldnt be that hard to come down and see her (vica versa as well). I will def go there if I have a hankering for crab and beating something up (ie the crab, not Kaitlin). We saw this AWESOME band, The Avett Brothers . They are a wonderful mix of bluegrass and awesomeness. I even got a free ticket!! People in Baltimore are so friendly, its crazy.
These flip flops my mom got are a GREAT conversation starter. At the BBQ I saw a girl who had them on, turns out she's from Alaska, and we had a wonderful conversation about moose. While at the airport a guy sitting next to me had the exact same ones on I did. I mentioned it to him, turns out he's moving to DC in August! He got my phone number and he said he would call! Ha ha, what a way to meet someone!
Saturday, July 02, 2005
**insert huge groan here**
Current Mood: angry... but not that kind of angry
Current Music: "Awake" Godsmack
Here is a pic from 1000 Islands.. well at the guys anyways. From top left to right: Brent, Randy, Jim, Bill, Kyle, Liam, Bob, Pat
What a bunch of hotties, huh? Lol.. there def is one picture of them all standing in a circle, and you just KNOW they are doing something sketchy....
Guh, so today I start my diet. I decided it really is time to do something about my body. I am even keeping a record! Oh I know its nuts. I am hoping to cut down severely on fried food, which I am interested in seeing how that will work out, seeing as how I work at the Now.
Got a lot of shit on my mind the past couple of days, and it sucks even more because there really is nothing I can do about it. I mean it, NOTHING. *sigh* I think I am going to swear off men forever, or at least for the next month.
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